It's late, I'm tired, and I need to sleep, but I wanted to take just a second to let a few words spill onto the keyboard from my fingertips because I want to keep a sort of running log of how things go with Ms. S -- So that one day I can look back and go through it again...

I don't think it's going to last forever, but I'm impressed it's going as well as it is. I really enjoy hanging out with her, and it appears the feeling is mutual. I keep expecting something to blow up and create a disaster, because like, that's what ALWAYS happens, right? Not necessarily in relationships specifically, but life in general.. I feel like everytime things calm down and get to where they're comfortable, shit explodes and life throws you threw another one of those growing experiences that leaves you humbled and reflective...

The thing is, I *am* growing -- I'm growing attached.. and like.. I still feel like I could put it down if I needed to, but I'm feeling as if the cusp of something greater is approaching, and like.. maybe that's me wishing for something that isn't there, but how else do you feel what someone says "I really like you" in a voice that speaks from their heart...

I like you too lady. I really like you in fact. I'm starting to like you to the point of being afraid of losing you, and for that I feel slightly selfish, though I'm workin' it out. I'm still confused, but it's an enjoyable confusion.

sleep now.

zZz